As they tied me up with the rope I once so longed for, I took a long, deep, final breath in. You’d think becoming a villain might feel good, but it’s actually quite painful. And then you burn for your crimes. Maybe that’ll feel good.
I’ve never quit a job I loved before, but I no longer love my job so I guess that sentiment holds true. I love Jimmy, Jason, Angelica, Kirsten, Cooper, Barbara, Syd, Diego, Ben, Kyle, Carlos, Alex, Janine, James, Carli, Kelso, Lee, Cristian, Michael, Josie, and I could probably write this list for hours. I love giving too much love. I love pining and wishing and hoping and dreaming. I love protecting myself, but I love protecting others more.
I can do whatever I want. I am no one’s pet.
It is with a heavy heart and a clear head that I resign from my role as a Business Advisor for the New York Small Business Development Center network. I love my job, and I am incredibly proud of the work we do to empower people who are chasing their dreams and growing small businesses in our community. I am especially proud to have uplifted women, the queer community, Black-owned businesses, immigrants, Spanish-speakers, and countless other people who ordinarily, because of our country’s shameful history, cannot afford or access high-quality business education.
Unfortunately, I will not remain in an organization or work for an administration that can no longer provide representation or equitable services for marginalized people and those historically excluded from government programs.
If people do not see themselves represented as entrepreneurs, they will not become entrepreneurs. That is the President’s goal in coercing our organization, and the rest of the federal government, to adopt “amended marketing messaging” and stop promoting vital resources, like the LGBTQ+ Chamber of Commerce or Minority and Woman-Owned Certification programs. Donald Trump wants to restore patriarchy and white supremacy. The New York Small Business Development Center is part of a large system aiding and abetting him.
I fully understand the challenging power dynamic at play here and I have immense respect for my colleagues who will continue to do this important work. I’ve made a personal decision to exercise my own power, and take my time and talents to an organization that more directly aligns with my values. Diversity, equity, and inclusion programs aim to close the wage and gender gap, build generational wealth in historically disadvantaged communities, and uplift the most beautiful, deserving members of our society. I refuse to compromise that mission for it is my personal mission.
The gay boys gathered around and held my charred body close. They will wash me of my sins and they will protect me while I find the strength to protect them again. We’ll work together to protect everyone. Because we need that right now.